The question, “Who am I? Why was I born?” is something I have struggled with over the whole of my life. It’s a question that can be easily answered for some but for others it dogs their life until they can find an answer within themselves or until only death can bring them some freedom.
Some areas of my life have been fun and happy, but as with human nature we remember the bad times more strongly. I have made my share of mistakes and wrong choices in my life, some that haunt me even today. No one goes through life 100% innocent.
Obviously, I’m not going to use the real names of the people written about on my blog. I am not seeking revenge; I see no point attacking those who I feel have wronged me. My belief in Karma of “what goes around, comes around” is one faith I have not lost and since I have paid more than once for past mistakes myself, I see no point in outing them here in my blog.
Having spoken to people overseas, watching and hearing the news, reading the print media. I have realized as painful as my life may have been to me, I am not alone and many millions of adults and especially children face much worse poverty, suffering, violence and extremely poor conditions every day of their lives.
Life is one big learning experience and for the most part we are all masters of our own destinies, but as I contemplate my past, for me confronting the past it gives me hope for the future.
There seems to be a lot of self-righteous people out there who make judgments of people’s misdeeds. The way they live their life, even religious beliefs, they should look in their and their families’ closets, it seems everyone has skeletons hidden in there. If there is a GOD and a heaven I will be surely judged negatively for my sins and positively for what I have done to repent those sins.
Wishing everyone a great Christmas and that the New Year brings everyone happiness and good health.
